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Confessions — death

My Son Overdosed and this is How I Remember Him…

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My Son Overdosed and this is How I Remember Him…

On May 19, 2013 my son Matthew died. He left us due to a combination of fentanyl and alcohol. That’s a lethal combination of substances to ingest. Matt was living in a sober home in a nearby city when this occurred. I’d spoken to him the evening before and everything seemed fine. So when the police showed up at my door to tell me he was gone I was truly shocked.  In fact, I argued with them at first, insisting that they were wrong, that I’d just spoken to him, and he was fine. As awful as that day was,...

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This is why I don’t Socially do Drugs!

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This is why I don’t Socially do Drugs!

TRIGGER WARNING: This is why I can’t Socially do Drugs — I’ve got to say, I’ve neglected you. Well, the addiction part of my blog that is anyway. But hey? That’s got to be a great thing right you’d think… Nonetheless I’ve still gotta let it all hang loose sometimes, because I know some readers ...

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I Feel Like I Killed My Best Friend

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I Feel Like I Killed My Best Friend

I feel like I killed my best friend.  I know it wasn’t my fault, it was the damn cancer. But my actions at the time of her passing could have been better behaved. I loved my grandmother and I would’ve done anything for her! I was only 9 months clean from heroin at the time of ...

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Mental Processing and Rationale to Death

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Mental Processing and Rationale to Death

In life, there are situations that tend to cause one to contemplate certain situations. In these situations one’s conscience rules into its mental being and asks–or leans towards–questions of death, dying, and the grotesque. With our brain’s adaption to specific feelings we have systems called mirror neurons and cortical-limbic connections. These processes in our brain are ...

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