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He Was My Night Terror, Again!

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He Was My Night Terror, Again!

I woke up choking. The air wasn’t getting down my wind-pipe and I was almost positive that I’d gotten sick and almost asphyxiated. I had thought that the night terrors of him were gone. But, almost 6 years clean and sober, practicing recovery every second of every day, I still am human and prone to err. ~ I was sick this weekend. This was the first weekend that I’d been sick in a very long time and the weather didn’t help. It was extremely humid, I had the flu, and with horrendous sleep apnea I was having problems functioning properly....

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This is why I don’t Socially do Drugs!

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This is why I don’t Socially do Drugs!

TRIGGER WARNING: This is why I can’t Socially do Drugs — I’ve got to say, I’ve neglected you. Well, the addiction part of my blog that is anyway. But hey? That’s got to be a great thing right you’d think… Nonetheless I’ve still gotta let it all hang loose sometimes, because I know some readers ...

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Is Sobriety Right For You?

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Is Sobriety Right For You?

Nothing seems real and it’s a bitter irony. The world I used to live in vanished the night I got clean, but maybe it was for the better. I was living in a world where drugs fought for my sanity—or insanity—I manipulated everything around me. It was all a mass conformity to something that could ...

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Mental Processing and Rationale to Death

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Mental Processing and Rationale to Death

In life, there are situations that tend to cause one to contemplate certain situations. In these situations one’s conscience rules into its mental being and asks–or leans towards–questions of death, dying, and the grotesque. With our brain’s adaption to specific feelings we have systems called mirror neurons and cortical-limbic connections. These processes in our brain are ...

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The 5 Stages of a Dying Relationship

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The 5 Stages of a Dying Relationship

Living with an addict is not easy; in fact it’s one of the hardest lifestyles to endure. But living with the addiction is one of the hardest things for an outsider to comprehend. I have lived the addiction and also lived with an addicted, or many at that. Living with someone who is addicted is ...

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