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Why I Always Felt Fat!

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Why I Always Felt Fat!

Hi everyone! It’s been a while since I’ve written on here, so let me re-introduce myself. My name is Marv, I just turned 31 years old, and my sobriety/clean date is June 22, 2013. I am also someone who battled major body dysmorphia issues over the years, which led me to have a very unhealthy and complicated relationship with exercise and food. Yes, you heard right. I'm a male who is extremely open about discussing the fact that I battled with body image issues, which led me to make some very destructive choices over the years; choices that I am...

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I Only Exercised Loaded!

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I Only Exercised Loaded!

I only exercised while loaded during the first 7 years of my love affair with the gym.Well, obsession with the gym is more accurate; but yes, I only worked out with heavy weights drunk, high, or both. Now, that sounds pretty crazy in hindsight, even to me, but at the time I didn’t think twice about it. A huge part of my disease came in the form of body shaming (which ultimately led to body dysmorphia), feelings of inadequacy, and feeling weak or downright pathetic. As a kid, I was picked on a lot as I tried to hang with...

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Side Effects of Steroid Abuse

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Side Effects of Steroid Abuse

These are some of the side effects of abusing steroids and muscle enhancing drugs on a personal level... Written by Marv of One Step at a Time Fitness and Recovery    “On Cycle” Effects 1 -Insane strength and muscle gains (I would gain up to 20-25 pounds. I peaked at over 220 pounds total). -Increased fat burning (I got as low as 8% body fat still without knowing how to diet properly as I thought you had to eat “clean” all the time and calories didn’t matter). -Increased endurance (Depending on what drugs or research chemicals I was taking). -Increased...

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I'm Addicted to Steroids Pt. 2: Mayhem to Recovery

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I'm Addicted to Steroids Pt. 2: Mayhem to Recovery

"So as you can see… I was a walking oxymoron in more than just one way, and all the torture that I put my body and mind through was about to reach a breaking point in more than just one way. But what ways were there to go from here? END! Part 1…" To read Part 1 "I'm addicted to steroids" CLICK HERE   As you can see Mike has some severe addictions to drinking, drugging, and most of all performance enhancing drugs like steroids and testosterone! Above is the last little snippet of part 1. So where does the...

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I'm Addicted to Steroids!

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I'm Addicted to Steroids!

Ah the walking oxymoron… Pt. 1. That was me for well over 10 years. I studied Kinesiology in college and even earned my B.S. in Exercise Science while learning how to repair and build the human body. I worked in a top tier physical therapy department; ranked in the top 5% of clinics in the entire nation. I worked out pretty much daily; primarily with intense weight-training but I also competed in triathlons for a period of time. I also watched what I ate and took supplements—more supplements than anyone would think humanly possible—but dammit I was “healthy” because of...

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