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I Only Exercised Loaded!

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I Only Exercised Loaded!

I only exercised while loaded during the first 7 years of my love affair with the gym.Well, obsession with the gym is more accurate; but yes, I only worked out with heavy weights drunk, high, or both. Now, that sounds pretty crazy in hindsight, even to me, but at the time I didn’t think twice about it. A huge part of my disease came in the form of body shaming (which ultimately led to body dysmorphia), feelings of inadequacy, and feeling weak or downright pathetic. As a kid, I was picked on a lot as I tried to hang with...

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I'm Addicted to Steroids!

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I'm Addicted to Steroids!

Ah the walking oxymoron… Pt. 1. That was me for well over 10 years. I studied Kinesiology in college and even earned my B.S. in Exercise Science while learning how to repair and build the human body. I worked in a top tier physical therapy department; ranked in the top 5% of clinics in the entire nation. I worked out pretty much daily; primarily with intense weight-training but I also competed in triathlons for a period of time. I also watched what I ate and took supplements—more supplements than anyone would think humanly possible—but dammit I was “healthy” because of...

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