Denial is the most evilest--and my worst--sin of all.
I would rather regret something I did than never have an opportunity to make a change at all.
There are so many things that I regret; and I’m so freaking sorry for that.
I know that I may never see some of my friends again.
I know that a lot of my family may hate me forever.
There are people who will walk and turn the other way if seeing me in public.
But there is so much danger behind looking at someone or something and forcibly denying anything wrong had ever happened. And that’s my worst sin.
I am sick and tired of having a shit taste in my mouth from so many times I’ve puckered up.
That has to change.
People don’t want a lot from me. And a lot of people may even remember me.
But I remember.
There is a pain behind these eyes and I feel the hole in my heart getting bigger the more I avoid my pain.
So this is the best that I can do and I’m glad I chose to be honest, because winners may get the prom queen but I’m always satisfied with just trying my best at a better life...
Just for today, amen 🙏 -Brian McCollom in recovery since Christmas 2010 ❤️