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Mental Health — mania

Am I Allergic to Caffeine or Just Crazy?!

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Am I Allergic to Caffeine or Just Crazy?!

My anxiety is going crazy and I don’t know why! I’m in a moment of peril but my body looks completely calm on the outside. On the inside though? I’m a wreck! My stomach is in knots and my throat is parched. Maybe I am just dehydrated? I couldn’t just be dehydrated, right? I’ve been drinking excess water lately and it’s not helping today! I feel like I’ve relapsed and I’ve got something to be guilty about, but I haven’t. Could it be something from the past coming back to haunt me? What is it! The only thing different I...

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A Bipolar Man Pt. 2: Mania

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A Bipolar Man Pt. 2: Mania

The tables are turned and I’m on the end of my ropes, ready to go off on anyone or anything that crosses my path. People say it’s low blood sugar, and eating food does help, but it’s only masking the problem. What a load of crap, right? I’m a complete rage-o-holic when I finally burst from it all. I can’t control the inner feelings, when just five minutes ago I was the master of a poker face. God-darnit mental illness can be so debilitating! (For Pt. 1: Agitated Depression go "here") cont... Everyone seems to not understand that now, yes...

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A Bipolar Man Pt. 1: Agitated Depression

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A Bipolar Man Pt. 1: Agitated Depression

So, I’m gonna lay it out for you! Here’s my mental illness some days; still today. Although, the majority of when this took place was right when I first got clean and for about 2 years into my recovery, it can still grip me up and tear me down to this day, six  years later… I’m now six years in to my recovery and you can see the difference reflecting back. But today? Today is one of those days; I’m so blank minded. I’m also struggling on the inside, and everyone always says, “You’ve got such a great poker face.”...

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Do I pursue Mania or does Mania pursue me?

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Do I pursue Mania or does Mania pursue me?

Part 1: Do I Pursue Mania? I’ve been manic before. Heck, I’m manic now. Every time an episode comes on, I feel as if it’s all my fault. Doctors tell us it isn’t. Therapists tell us it isn’t. However, that’s exactly how we do feel. We feel as if it is us, if we had ...

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